congratulations, its a... TODDLER

its official. my baby is now in full-fledged toddler mode. there is no more baby left in him (unless hes sleeping, then i can see it)

i made this startling revelation last night. we were at jamie's band christmas sing-a-long concert, and he was unable to sit still. i had to take him out into the lobby where he chased around another little boy about his size. we left early and went home where i tried to bake some brownies...

...and when i say tried... i mean tried. i did eventually succeed, but it was a battle. first came the removal of ALL the baking pans, and the tantrum that followed when i told him to return the pans to the cubbard...

... then came the biting argument. i told him no, mommy cant pick him up right now, give me a minute (i was putting the brownies in the oven) and the little shit bit me. right on the leg. needless to say, he did get smacked for that. i dont usually spank, slap or hit my child in any way, but telling him "no" on biting does not work...

... and then came dinner. he ate his chicken, threw his vegetables on the ground and screamed at me when i told him to finish chewing and swallow his food. that resulted in his showing me his chewed up food. eventually following my orders and swallowing it...

... for the topper of the night... his nebulizer treatment... usually he does it really well. however, last night (and the night before) he has thrown the worlds largest tantrum. there was screaming, red faced shaking his entire body, kicking and hitting me. i won. stuck him on my lap, little legs stuck between mine, one arm behind me, and the other held in the same hand, my fingers just created a circle around his wrist, no pressure needed. the other hand, i used to hold his nebulizer mask in place...


... needless to say, i am exhausted. all of this combined helped me to realize we have now entered the dreaded "terrible twos" and my baby boy is now a toddler. yay for me!!!

i want my baby back...

but i defenitly am loving this toddler that has taken his place full of hugs and kisses when he isnt screaming...