it is time for me to figure out what i wanna be when/if i grow up. i have an idea of what i really want to do, i'm just nervous about actually doing it...
what i want to do is to teach high school english. how i would love to teach young high school students the wonder of the written word. help them to understand and love it as much as i do. to be able to help them understand Shakespeare, Austen, Chaucer, and many of the classic authors i have always loved...
the only thing holding me back i guess is my uncertainty. can i actually teach? would i be good at instilling a passion in those young minds for the unknown? could i handle defeat when they dont care about what i have to teach them? am i really cut out to do it?
i have begun research into gaining my BA in English, with a minor possibly in writing. the schools i have looked at thus far offer a dual degree. in which i would gain my english degree as well as a secondary education certification.
there is nothing holding me back from attaining this goal, other than my lack of faith in myself i suppose. i will be getting training to become a medical administrative assistant so i can pay my bills for the time being, but lets face it... its not in me to do so forever...
how do i get that faith and start my training. it took me six years to get my associates degree... what if i NEVER get that Bachelor's??? what if i never try? what if i can't hack it as a "real" college student, single parent, and human being???
what if i am just being too hard on myself and just need to go ahead and jump???
lets face it... im 24 and living in my parents house with my (almost) two year old son...
i need to go ahead and jump in...
anyone have a parachute, or bungee cord i can borrow??? preferably one that actually works...
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