An attempt to get healthy

so I shattered my femur nearly three years ago in a really nasty motorcycle accident. And when I say shattered, I mean shattered... Like very little left to work with. The emergency surgeon inserted a titanium rod into the leg and did a bone graft. Two months later, a second surgeon cleaned up the remaining bone fragments in the leg and added some weird putty stuffs around the bone to encourage bone growth.

Fast forward to march of this year, when during Spring break, instead of partying it up, I once again went under the knife to have the rod removed and replaced with a whole new one and a new bone graft patched around that. The big difference is this time the surgeon told me to get up and move around as much as possible immediately after surgery.

It's been nearly two months and I'm getting better but now I'm on a mission to get healthier - trying to spend time in the pool as much as possible - it Helps me move around and strengthen the weakened muscles without severe impact. I'm also trying to eat better and take better care of myself so I can lose weight. I'm a big girl and have roughly 80-90 lbs to lose to be healthy, he'll I'd even take 60 lbs down right now.

However my problem is this - I LOVE FOOD. And the worse it is for me, the more I love it. So trying to stay healthy is difficult. Not to mention I get extremely discouraged anytime something bad happens, like an increase in the scale or a loss in muscle mass. And I have a hard time staying on track when I get stressed - like this week's finals. Just shoot me now.

Anywhoos, I'm gonna try to stay eating better and swimming so I can get healthy for my son :)